Why Did I Choose A Life Of Autism, Chronic Illness, and Pain?
This post answers questions for The Council from an anonymous reader based on a post we wrote called The Spiritual Significance of Autism.
Anonymous: I’ve never been formally diagnosed, but I’m an autistic adult in her 40s. I want to take comfort in your post on the spiritual significance of autism and I believe it, but I’ve been treated hideously and cruelly almost my entire life.
Council: And you do know the way you’re treated by others is really not about you, but more about them and where they are on their path in this particular lifetime. When you make it less about you, you can look at it more clearly without it hurting so much.
Anonymous: Abuse, bullying, social rejection, you name it. What is the worst of all is my family. My father is physically and verbally abusive, my mother is neglectful, and my sister is a narcissist and liar who’s always been jealous of me, tried to cut me out of the family, and told lies to do it. They all act like they hate me.
Council: And so we’d say at this point, when you’ve brought in so much abuse to yourself your whole life, there’s a reason for that. You want to learn about it, what it feels like to be abused, and to turn it around.
And so you already know it’s a difficult place to be, it hurts your feelings, and you feel cast out, but why is this happening now when it’s at a point in your life where you can change it? We’d say number one, before you do anything else, it is your thoughts – your sister is a liar, your family is terrible. Your outlook towards your family and towards other people is so negative that your vibration will attract more negativity and more abuse. You are not a victim here. You chose to experience this just for the purpose of turning it around.
You don’t have to be the person they treat you like. You don’t have to believe what they say about you. You are a spirit. You are so powerful, and you have choices in every part of your life. The #1 choice you need to make now is to have more positive thoughts, to look at these people and instead of being so negative about them, feel sorry for them if you can. Try to realize there are things going on in their life and they take their negativity out on you. Why is that? Because your negative vibration attracts it.
When you start treating yourself with love, with kindness, and doing happy things for yourself, the people around you will see the change. They may not understand it, but they will see it, and it will bring different kinds of people into your life. The kind you want, that love you, that can be caring, and that don’t abuse you. And eventually some of these abusers have the ability to change, if that’s what they want on their path.
And so it all comes from you. The feeling deep down, the feeling of being abused, the feeling of being lied to, the feeling of people abandoning you, all of that is so negative. And so if you go through this every day, every day you are creating more and more abuse.
Anonymous: It’s not just my immediate family though. I’ve been bullied and abused by relatives, classmates, and others, and I feel like I’m a magnet for mistreatment.
Council: How about thinking, “I know there’s one person out there that will appreciate me. Oh, that feels so good when I can find that person.” Look how your energy changes with that. It’s exciting. There is somebody that will be nice. And when you experience that, there will be more and more. Change your thoughts
Anonymous: At this point I just don’t understand how or why I’d willingly take this on and subject myself to so much pain.
Council: To learn from it and know you can change it.
Anonymous: And it’s not just autism. I have chronic illnesses and other pain too.
Council: How would this negative thinking not cause illnesses? It affects your body. Every negative thought goes into the body and eventually it hits the bones, it hits the organs, it hits the skin, you don’t feel good, and you’re mentally depressed. Again it’s the thinking that changes it. When you start to be positive with your thoughts, the illnesses will drop away. Little by little you’ll begin to feel better. There’s so much more for you out there in this life. That is what you need to tune into.
Anonymous: I’m so angry at myself if I chose this.
Council: Ah, angry at yourself. That’s a big negative. You must find ways to appreciate yourself. See the things you do that are nice. See the things you do that maybe help others. See the thoughts you have. What do you do for yourself? Do you go to a movie? Do you take yourself out to eat? Do you go for ice cream? Do these nice things for yourself. It has to change.
Anonymous: All I want is for it all to end, and I constantly wish for death.
Council: It’s not death that will help you, because then you’ll repeat it again in another lifetime if you don’t try to change your thoughts, to think you’re really a good person, you don’t hurt anybody, and you love yourself. Start with your feet. Look at your feet. “I love my feet. My feet are great. I love my hands. Maybe I like the kind of hair I have.” Find the parts of you and every day add more and more. When you start appreciating yourself, the universe says, “Wow. Look at that. Let’s send her more to appreciate.” And your life begins to change.
And that’s your purpose this time around in your current incarnation. So have fun with it. Show yourself that you are powerful. You can change anything, because you can. You are a spirit. The choices you make and the thoughts you have creates the life that you live. What you think is what shows up in your physical reality.
Anonymous: What do I do? I really feel so hopeless and lost, and I don’t know how to cope at all. The very few people in my life who’ve come into it to show me any kindness or love have left, or always leave me.
Council: And so there are more new people that can come into your life. You are the magnet. Your thought goes out there, and it’s out there in the universe. You want people to appreciate you, you want love, you want nice, kind people. It’s there. You’ve got to keep thinking about that. You’ve got to feel it. What would that be, to have a friend, to have someone to hang out with that’s really nice to me?
Feel that. The feeling is the magnet. That is the key. Pretend like a little child that you have this wonderful new friend, that you have a wonderful new life. You’re so excited because all of a sudden these people are popping into your life. Feel it. That’s the magnet. You are the magnet. Send your thought out, feel it, and bring it back to you. The universe will give you what you are feeling.
Anonymous: Is there any way I can just exit this life because I took on too much, and I can’t handle it, and find it unbearable. Is that even possible to do?
Council: It’s possible to commit suicide, but that’s not the way out. The way out is to change that negative thinking. The way out is to know there is so much there, so much more, and now you’re at a point in your life where you want to find it. And just that will change your life. It’s work, but we feel you can do this.
And we also want to say here that when you’re in spirit and you picked all of this, in spirit you’re strong, you’re loving, you know that there’s nothing you can’t do. So when you pick all of this, you say, “Oh, this is horrible. How am I going to do this?” You’re like, “All right, bring it on, let me jump in there, let me change how I think, let me bring more love to myself, let me bring more love into that reality.” And you don’t doubt it for one minute. And then you come into this incarnation and your life begins, but your higher self, which is you, knows what you want to do. And so now is your time.
Wonderful, wonderful questions. This has been such a joy for us. And we’ll send everybody love and happiness on their journey, and remind everyone to stay with the positive thoughts. In your reality what is going on is that a lot of positive thoughts are needed. And when you tap into this, and more and more of you do this, the whole reality that you exist in right now will change. The course of your world is up to you. It all comes from the right thinking.
You’ve created your lives with the special people in them for a purpose. You’ve agreed to do things together. And always the agreement was to have happy thoughts, positive thoughts, finding things that don’t work right and have them work right. Help each other, help animals, help the trees, help the ocean. You’re all here together to make this reality better and better.
And so we wish you joy. And remember, coming into this life, you came in with the thought of having a joyous time, to find happiness everywhere, and that’s your purpose. Have a happy life, enjoy it, create fun, create love. You can all do this.
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